Throughout high school, I haven't had one serious relationship, and I'm perfectly okay with that. I'm here to tell you, that not falling in love in high school isn't the end of the world.
My bestfriends are all in love, and I'm beyond happy for them. I have friends who are also with boys, but don't seem to be completely in love with them or maybe have fixations on other people. That's where I get my sanity from. There's nothing wrong with dating just to find the right guy, but I'm such a independent person I want to find a guy that I can date to prepare for the future with.
I've realized that I'd rather be single and dance by myself rather than be with someone who doesn't make me feel whole. I don't want to be a girl who claims to be in love with a boy but is secretly talking to a dozen others. Better yet, I'd rather chase God then chase any other man. He gives me the security and sense of closure that I need, and I don't think anyone could fulfill that rather than him.
Back my freshman and sophomore year, I hopelessly chased boys that I knew would never be "the one", and it got me nowhere. All it simply was, was me lowering my standards for people who didn't deserve it in hope to fulfill society's "relationship goals." I've realized what I'm worth, and I'm worth so much more than a silly DM on Instagram or a cat call walking down the hall. I know what I want, and I have my standards, and I'm perfectly okay with being single until I find a guy I know God hand picked out for me. People fall in love at different times of their lives, and a lot of my friends have found theirs early, and it's totally obvious they were meant to be together and brought together by God. I'm so secure with myself, my friends, my family, and my Savior to be chasing a boy who treats me any less than I deserve. One day when the comes along, I will embrace the opportunity if I feel like it's right, but until then i'm beyond okay with being alone.
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